| wow its been a while since ive written in this so there is a lot i have to say... so get ready... hehe... ok so first of all, sherrie broke things off with heath and that is what started alllllll the drama... :sigh: when he came to come get his stuff out of the apartment in academy sherrie and i were supposed to be gone... but we werent bcz our plans for the night got messed up so we came back and we werent even gonna bother him we just went straight to my room and sat on the bed but then he came in there cussin and stuff and gettin all loud so then we were gonna leave and just go drive around or something but i left my keys in the room and heath locked us out of the house and we were tryin to get back in... well he finally opened up the door and he practically TACKLED sherrie so she hit him right... so he calls the police and files assault charges on her! and we're like what the hell.. but wutever... so then we get to temple and go to roberts and im freakin out bcz the whole town of temple P.D is out lookin for my car and im cryin n stuff... and heath is like stalking us and callin us every five minutes... it was crazy.... but anyways.. all that drama settled down and he dropped the charges while i was in north carolina... so taht was good.. THEN when i get back from N.C.. i find out sherrie has been loaning my car to her new lil boyfriend person.. A DRUG DEALER! and he has been making runs in my car!!! and im freakin out.. gah... and the new apartment we've been staying in is in Meadow Village of all places and they think that they can just take my car everywhere n stuff... like last night they took the car and told me they would be 30 minutes... they came home 3 and a half hours later!!! i was like wtf.... then i took the car for like 30 minutes to go get my friend taras boyfriend from work .. then me tara willie (her boyfriend) kyle and josh go back to the apartment.. then alex (the drug dealer) and sherrie just take off in my car again!!! they went to this KKK place and get my damn car stuck in the mud and im like wut the hell yall are putting me AND sherrie in danger takin her out there and them seeing my car.... grr...and they are gone for 4 hours!!! and while they were gone kyle was all talkin to me n stuff.. hes so sweet sometimes... he was just tellin me that i deserved better then this and that i needed to distance myself away from alex n sherrie bcz they are just gonna get me into trouble and all this ... it wasnt like he was tellin me what to do tho... he was just expressing the fact that he was worried for my safety... and he told me to go home and that if i started having problems at home again then he would help me get out of there.... and stuff like that and im like awww u wanna take care of me and hes like holly i will always take care of you and im like OMG THATS TOO CUTE!! hes so good to me sometimes.. and he was all apologizing abt that girl and all this and hes like i really do care about u i hope you kno that.. it just scares me ya kno and im like i kno... i mean if anything happend to him i dont kno wut i would do.. i would prolly go like insane or something... my parents would have to like.. fly dixie down here to calm me down i would be crazy for real... its scarey how much i care about him.. like ... i care more abt him in the short time that ive known him then i did abt allen in the 8 yrs i thought i was completely in love with him! its crazy ... yeah but today i went and i moved all my stuff out of the apartment in meadow ghetto and i just came home.. i also went and talked to nick and hes gonna try and get me my job back ... so yeah.. hopefully things will work out but yeah thats all for now.. thats like the condensed version.. lol |
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| omg omg omg omg omg.... that is all i have to say.... is omg... o.... m.... g..... today we were talkin abt sherrie bein preg. (we think she is and heaths mom swears she is) welll annyyway...heaths mom swears that I AM TOO!!! im like O..... M...G... please dont say that... my parents would kill me... then i would DEFINATELY have to move in with sherrie... and im not ready to have a baby... i mean i am.. i want one but i dont want one when i dont have a GUY.... and kyle is DEFINATELY not ready to have a baby... hes not even ready to have a GIRLFRIEND! gah... i dont kno wut to do... cuz if i am... everything is going to have to change... and what scares me even more is that me n sherrie both are like a week late... so yeah....its kinda freakin us both out... heh... yeah but tahts alll i have to say.. im gonna go watch my movie now... im out... PRAY FOR ME! |
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| :sigh: im letting myself get to close to him... dammit.. its like everytime i see him i get butterflies and all i can do is smile... but hes not supposed to do that to me... hes not supposed to matter so much... we're just playing around... why cant i get him out of my head! GAH! i cant even keep him out of my sleep! i even dream about the boy... *bangs head on the desk* grrrrrr i cant do this anymore... cuz i am totally ready for a relationship and hes not... i hate it... and everyone keeps asking us why we arent hooked up... even people at WORK are asking us... and they arent even supposed to kno that anything has happend!!! ugh.. even my boss Nick the other day was all like.. so are u and kyle seeing each other yet... and i was like wut do u mean YET... geez.. no we're not seeing each other and we prolly never will dammit! cuz all he wants to do is PLAY! i really need to stop tho... cuz its just gettin too hard... its like i already have the jealous girlfriend part down cuz everytime i see him flirt with another girl im just like GAAAAAAHHHH and i get all mad n stuff.. and i mean i have no right bcz we're not even together!!! WHY CANT I GET HIM OUT OF MY DAMN HEAD!!! *cryz* *breathe* anyways... yeah thats all i really needed to get out... heh... im out |
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| nothing new has happend except for the fact that i got to talk to dixie again last night (yay!) and i told chris thankyou for taking such great care of my best friend... he seems like a nice guy... im really glad he's around.. anyways.. i love this song.. hehe and thats all i have to say.. IM OUTIE! hehe MWAH! |
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